I feel like there is something in my chest craving to get out - it feels like an anxiety attack coming closer and closer, like I'm a ticking bomb, waiting to explode. Crying won't help, it only feeds the panic flowing through my system.. I'm so homesick that it hurt deep to the core. I don't only miss my family, my moms food, my fathers discussion, my sisters gossip trips or my brothers teasing - I miss my whole country, I miss the food at the grocery store, I miss the people walking on the street minding their own bussines, I miss walking into a store and not having people being overly nice to me, I miss the pizza around the corner, I miss sitting at a cafe reading a newspaper, I miss tons of things.. Family, culture, food.. It feels like I'm getting lost, loosing my focus, loosing my reasoning for why I am here.. My husband is here. My work is here. My friends are here. I can get a work at home. I have friends at home. My husband.. That's the tricky part. I can't be apart from him and he can't move. So what do I do with this panic and my homesick? Love em