EM

Tomorrow it's finally Friday, a day I have been looking forward to the whole week. I'm so not use to working, and especial not like this. Leaving my house at 6 am and not getting back until 6 pm, just to run inside, change and go to the gym, get home for real at 10 pm, shower, eat and then fall asleep and then wake up and do the same thing all over again, social life - no! Monday trough Friday is a mess is all about work, working out and Prince. I have like 20 emails to answer on Saturday and 2 important phone calls to make. I love it, but it's difficult. I am so not use to this schedule, but I guess it will come with time, right? I will get use to it.

I got asked out at the gym today, and for the first time I felt the need to say yes and that I had the right to do it. There are different types of breaks in life, sometimes you don't want to move on because you still believe, and have faith for the future, so you let it be and you try to move slowly but not to fast - or that's how it is for me, because if I fully move on, there is no way back. Sometimes the timing is off, without hurt feelings or emotional breakdowns you go separate ways, and hopes for the future might still be a factor. This time I'm emotional drained and hurt and therefore there were no hope for the future, therefore my choice was to move on and the quicker the better! Friendship is a different story, but emotional I moved on faster then I have ever done, because when a relationship is rough, you're always on the edge, you're always prepared for the worst outcome and now, when it came, for the last time I was emotional ready to jump in to the future and live my emotional baggage in the past. It feels good. The reason why I say that there is no way back for me when I move on is because when I make that decision, to move on, I do it with the same determination as I do everything else in my life. So when I move on, I leave all the emotions and feelings that I had in the past right there, in the past and in the future I bring memories and a friend, but all the rest is left and as we all know, we can never go back in time to pick up where we left off. If anything will ever happen, everything needs to start from a fresh start and the past must still be in the past.

It's night walk time with Prince, and then it's time for me to hit the bed, I'm tired. As hell! Yeah, I have other news as well, I got bangs now! Fully cover my for head and goes all the way down to my eyes, it's long and sexy and I can barley see, but I actually like it, even though I def regret it! Just remembered when my hair was falling down next to me, just how long it takes for it all to grow back out again.

Sweden? Not in a long time now.

But I'm in no hurry - friends, it's time for all of you to come here, I have been here for almost 2 years now, been home twice, I don't think I need to play the guilt trip game, it's your turn! Amanda and Emelie are planning, so that's close! Just get the planning done and come, ASAP!

Love, Em.