EM

SO last night was one of the intense types of night - but it was fun. Got off work and felt some proud in the fact that I just finished my first working week, driving home on I5 felt amazing, knowing that I actually do live the life I want to live right now. Stopped by the gym even though I really didn't have the time to do that, but 4 miles on the treadmill was something I felt like I had to do knowing that the weekend would involve alcohol, greasy food and cigarettes. After that I was invited for some yummy food at Maria's' place, wine good food and amusing company, good start for a Friday night and I got the good feeling of drinking your first glass of wine and smoke the first cigarette after a healthy hard working week! We ended up going to Billy's' after dinner for more drinks. This is what I love about America and how it's different from Sweden, yes I do miss the pre parties and getting ready together with friends to hit the club on a Friday night, the way we do it in Sweden, but randomly going to the local bar is a nice.

In America everything is different from what it is back home and it's not always a good different but peoples attitudes here are way different and I love it! If you do go out to a bar in Sweden the girls gives you dirty looks or they ignore you, the guys tries to hit on you to bring you home for one night only, like it's a specialty for the night - one night, one time only, we call it the one night stand and there is nothing special in being someone's one night stand. Here people talk to you, people are friendly and openhearted and I love that. Victor who just came here from Sweden to visit his girlfriend, my Maria, noticed this last night when 4 complete strangers set down at our table, 1 girl and 3 guys, very friendly! He thought we knew them from before, but we just met them outside smoking. Exchanged numbers and talked today, suddenly you have some cool new friends. In Sweden it's almost impossible to meet and interact with new people you don't have any connection with them from before, and since I am the type of girl that I am, I like the American way of socializing.

Today was a relaxed day, spending it with Pink at the mall and then I went out for food at Applebees with Christina, we always go out for food on Saturdays, it's are spending time together and spending money on something yummy to eat time!
I was supposedly going to port Orchard with Christina tonight, but I'm going to do that some other weekend instead, it's far away! So instead Jennifer is now on her way here, and we're getting ready to hit Seattle, meet up with Beshir and all of them to hit the club, I'm ready for a fun night out, not that I didn't have it last Saturday, but I'm getting back to party mood. I realized that I have those episodes in my life where I sometimes like to go out and then I mean go out a lot, like every weekend and sometimes I mostly go to bars and hang out with people I love a care about instead of wandering the streets of Seattle in the middle of the night. I haven't had the party gene since I moved to America, years of bar humping in Västerås got me burned out and I didn't feel like going out as much as a I used to, but now I'm back on track again and the little black dress and the 7" heels are on! Well, not yet, but the will be on, after a shower and some make up - pictures will be up shortly!

I'm starting to get homesick and confused about the future, but I wont deliberate those thoughts right now, I need to stop being so impulsive all the time.

But it would be nice to see my friends and family, it's getting hard knowing that I might not see them in a very long time. But you're all the best I have and I miss you everyday, but I also know after this journey after high school that I do have some amazing friends in my life.

So I hope your weekend is as good as mine and that you have just as fun as I'm having.

Love, Em.