Sometimes you understand the importance in friendship.
Sometimes you also understands that other people wont do the same for you as you've done for them.
Sometimes you get hurt.
Sometimes you understand that you need to step back for other people to be happy.
Sometimes it doesn't matter how much you do, people will always have a different opinion about what's right.
Sometimes you loose even if you think that you deserve to win.

I'm loosing right now, I believe that I did everything that I could, but in the end - it's up to other people to do the right thing. I lost, big time, this time - but I'm still standing with my head up high knowing for a fact that I did everything that I was in power of doing, still standing with my head up high - knowing that I can't be loved by them all, knowing that there are people who loves me..

Sometimes you get sucked in to other peoples drama and trying to do whats best, makes you loose in the end - but at the same time I didn't loose, I was true to myself and in the end that's all you can do - so if I choose to look at the big picture, which I always do - I guess I won, in one way.. in the end I will come out strong and knowing that all this, wasn't my fault..

"oh, that's * ex girlfriend" - that's funny, I never knew I was your girlfriend, even back then.

I'm out of this, I'm taking a break from everyone..
I'm done being back at the age of 15.. I'v come to far in my life to get sucked into this type of behaviour.

I miss my friends back home so much at this point that it hurts.. maybe I should just give in.. maybe it's true, maybe I don't belong.. maybe I'm done.. maybe?

love, em.