EM

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Gemini (May 21 - Jun 20)

You may be quite determined to get to the bottom of something that's been bothering you for a while. This isn't some passing whim; you are committed to doing whatever is necessary to fully understand your feelings. You may be driven by unrealistic values, yet you don't have to lose sight of what's real. Decide what's most important to you and then bring these ideals down to earth.

To be a gemini is never easy, it always puts you in different situations where you feel lost and don't know how to get out of them. I have always been a very emotional person, and I dedicate myself to everything that I do.. And for some reason I always get hurt on the way there.. I trust the wrong people, and I believe that they have their best interest for me.. but a very few people actually do.. That way I always get hurt, that way I always end up with less then I started of with.. Because I give more of myself, then I get in return.. I love my life, don't get me wrong I really do, but sometimes it feels like the universe thinks that I deserve to live a life I don't believe in.. My life fails all my thoughts and all my attempts to get a good life.. Maybe I need to get home on a safe base, maybe I need to get back to were I started off to be able to trust other people again.. it doesn't matter how much I love America, and how much America is my home - maybe I need to go home, maybe I need to be around people that are real, because most people here aren't.. and I'm so done of being disappointed, I'm tired of it.. I'm done being hurt, because I always do get hurt, so hurt that it's so hard to rise up from it.. and I don't need that.. so from this day, I need to make some difficult decisions and move on with my life, and live all this behind me. The question is, am I ready for that? Maybe I am and maybe I can make it work, because the day I move back to Europe, America is left behind and it always will be.. It can never again be my present.. it will forever be my past.. god, I'm so hurt right now, that I can't even think straight. I wish that I could just be like so many other people - I wish that I could ignore other people when they are idiots and be fine with that, but I can't.. I need to stay faithful to my heart, and that's the hard part..

Why can't my life just be easy?

LOVE , EM

Winter wonder land came to Americas west coast on Wednesday. People were calling me of the clock freaking out over the fact that I was driving, Thursday came and Jennifer was snowed in at my place, we took a trip to wall mart, got my oil changed and spend 2 hours at wall mart, buying stuff that we didn't really need, or I bought stuff that I didn't really need - but wall mart is cheap, right? Right! When we got out the air was white and silent snow came falling down. Johnny called Jennifer and asked why the hell we were out driving and told us to go home and start drinking wine, so we did. I couldn't understand what it was all about, it's just some snow, right? Right! Well, apparently the country of monster cars has people in it who doesn't know how to drive in the snow. I loved it, it made me feel like home, and homesickness wasn't as bad as it have been for the last two weeks, because god damn it - we have snow in Washington and A LOT of it! Love it! But it's true, people aren't prepared and they don't know how to drive in this type of weather, but why would they? I mean, hell yeah, it's easy to sit here and blame Americans for not being able to drive in snow, but when the Seattle are has snow maybe 1 week a year, why would they be experts in driving in the snow? It's not like Sweden who trips around in snow from November to late April. So driving right now it's not my favourite thing to do, not that I don't trust my self driving in snow and ice, but because I don't trust that the car behind me wont crash in to me if I for some reason need to hit the break, or that the car ahead of me wont start sliding down trying to get up the hill. No, safe before anything else - stay home, drink wine and play with Prince - that's my thing to do right now. Me and Maria are going for a power walk soon! After that I have an ugly sweater party to attend, my sweater is way ugly and pictures will be uploaded shortly after tonight!
On Thursday I had friends over for dinner and wine, we played charades, finished 8 bottles of wine and enjoyed each others company - I do have some great people in my life and I have honestly never felt happier with my life then right now.

Christmas is coming up, on Wednesday, and I have no feelings but homesickness. Holiday spirit isn't there and I can't feel a thing, I just feel sorry that I can't be with my family. It will be my first Christmas in 21 years without my moms Christmas food, my siblings giggling and excitement for Santa to arrive, I can honestly say that I will even miss my father arguing with me - which is something that always happens if we are looked down in the same house for more then 4 hours, which is easy done on Christmas, family time stays in the house. It will be difficult, but I also know that it's the right thing to do, it's time to grow up and move on and create my own life. I never take the easy road to anything, and especially to road to finding myself, that road isn't supposed to be easy and I search for every opportunity I get to grow as a person and find new sides of my self that I didn't know I had and learn how to deal with that and learn more about myself and how I work in certain situation, like being apart of my family. Being apart from my family is something that I have been for a long time now, and that's difficult when we are a very closed family, but at the same time I don't fit in and I need to be on my own to learn how to appreciate our differences and learn to take my place in our family. My part will never be to live in the house next to my fathers, or going to dinner and wine every Tuesday with my mother. I don't fit in the pattern of a close family as it's put by society. But I can still be close to my family even though I'm here, I believe that my relationship to my family is stronger today then it has ever been. I just realizing this while I'm writing. I need to do my own thing without having my family watching every step that I'm taking, and therefore I need to be far away from them. Because they don't agree with the life I choose for my self, but that's okay, cause it's my life and I need to live it - sometimes closeness isn't how close you are in the world, close is what you are when you hit a type of understanding in the other persons life without being in the same room and still love and still feel a deep connection, that's real friendship and that's the bond of a family, and bond I would never would have got with my family if I would have stayed back home.

Love, em.  

I don't doubt.

I don't say never.
I don't think that the future have more in store that it might seem like in a present moment.

I don't believe that focusing on your problems make them go away.
I believe that focusing on the good things in life make your problems seem less important.

I believe that we can not control everything or that we should even try.
I believe that we sometimes need to let go, and let faith lead us forward.
I believe that you can not control who you love, and you never shall.

I don't believe that you can ignore your feelings, because if you can, they aren't real.

I don't believe that one factor in your life should ruin other factors in your life.

I don't believe that it's impossible to keep things separated.

I don't believe that drama solves anything.

I believe that listening and understanding is a major skill to practise for greatness.

I don't believe that at relationship is two people becoming one.
I believe that a relationship is two people becoming one, but still keeping their own voice.  
I believe that our present time is valuable, that's what it's called present.

I don't believe that our pass should bring us down.
I don't believe that our future should push us to insanity - before we even get there.

I believe that problems in our future will become problems in the present when there is time.

I don't believe that problems are there of themselves, problems are what we make them to be.

I believe that life is just as difficult and as hard as we make it ourselves.

I believe in many things and I also don't believe in other things.

This makes a small part of my values, one small part of me being me, a small part to understand who I am and why I act and think the way I do. It's my way and reinsurance that I deal with things in a way where I can tell myself, yes, I did this the way I believe it should be done. I also believe that this is my list and not yours, what is your list like? What makes you, you?

Days like this, when the world around me showed itself from its ugliest face, it's difficult to remember, it's hard to stay sane to myself, it's difficult to believe that today isn't all I get and that sunlight always seems to come after rain, yeah, well maybe not in Washington. But I try and I try harder today then ever before - because right now, all I can think of is, what is the universe trying to tell me?
But I also need to remember that life isn't a destination, it's a journey and I haven't reached my destination yet, this isn't what life is all about, I just need to be patient and take care of my life the way I would guide others to do it - I'm not lost, I'm drained, and tomorrow will be better, I know that.
I just wish it would be easier, I wish people would stop saying, you can do this, you're strong! But why do I need to be strong all the time? How many of these things do I need to survive? My life isn't a bad story, it's a good one, this is just another bad chapter - but if you read a book with now lows or highs, why would you continue reading? This days makes the other days so much better - always look on the bright side of life...

Love, em.

My life is changing and it's happening in a speed I'v never experienced before, or have I?

I was on the phone with one of my old friends Karin today, and she asked me about plans for future life, since she last talked to me 3 weeks ago. I realized talking to her that as much as my life change in 3 weeks isn't normal to many, but for me, it's a reality, a reality that I'm facing year after year. 3 weeks ago my life situation was totally different and also my future plans. I updated her and as I was talking to her about my plans I also set them in stone for myself, speaking words out loud makes them real. I want to write, I want to be happy, I want to live life as it comes and I want to trust destiny to take me there. Therefore I don't try to control my plans or the direction my life is taking, no, I'm listening to my feelings and I let the chose the next step on my journey.
I always hear people talking about becoming something great, I always hear people around having major goals for their future brightness.
For me it's not about becoming a lawyer, a doctor or something else that pays the big money but I think it's fantastic that some people want to dedicate their life to save peoples life and protect people to spend their life in prison, freaking great!
Since I was 11 years old I have wanting to become a writer. I have come to the understanding that I won't be a Michelle Moore in two seconds and have best selling books all over the country, nationwide, I know I need a job on the side. I always thought that journalism would be my way to get there, but I'm confused over the choice now. I have been talking to so many people who tells me that their writing have been destroyed since they became journalists, journalism isn't about writing, it's about reporting and is that something that I want to do?
I need some serious thinking time.

I talked to a journalist from The Sun, two weeks ago - he told me, if I want to become a writer I need to dedicate myself to become the best writer I can be. Becoming a journalist will not help, I can't be a reporter during the day, writing after rules and directions set by the editors, and then be a creative writer at night time. He said, work at Mc Donald's! Write at night! I said never Mc Donald's! This got me to think, therefore my life changed more then it should have, but it's a good change and it is something that I believe in. I updated Karin and I updated myself. Yes my life changed a lot these couple of weeks, my view on things changed, my view of people in my life changed, my appreciation for people in my life changed, my living situation changed and my future changed - but it's a great feeling, following your gut, following your heart - and you can never be mislead. I believe in faith and life, and life will bring me forward and faith will put me in the right direction, I just need to stop controlling it and do with my life as my life do to me, live it instead of planning it!
AND NO, I won't wake up when I'm 35 asking myself where my life went, because I don't live that way, I live like everyday is the last one and I search for every chance to reach happiness and that's what life is about for me - and living it this way, can never make me fail.

Now I'm cuddling down with Prince, watching Batman the dark night, which I bought last night - btw, tomorrow is the day when mama mia comes out on DVD, AMAZING! I'm buying it, just to let you know, cause that movie makes my heart sing!

Love, em.

I believe in friendship, which might be a odd way of putting it, but I will give reasoning for my thinking and I will explain this random thought and make you understand the meaning behind these words, and what meaning they have for me - because if I learned one thing this last year and a half, it is that all people have different perceptions of words and the meaning behind them. It is not a bad difference, because difference is never a bad thing - it's just different and differences make the world move forward. So even if it isn't a bad thing, it sometimes and at curtain points make things confusing and in a different culture as I'm now finding myself in the middle of, it sometimes puts you in a situation where you need to sit down, calm down your spinning brain and try your hardest to understand and relate even though it many times is difficult. But as I'm now finding myself in a new culture, living a new life and creating an environment worth living in, it's my own responsibility to understand the world that I'm living in!

As growing up I have always been an over social person, with tons of energy and skills to talk to people, random people, people with different backgrounds, different life styles and different interests. I adapted well with new people and instantly found my spot in the group of people. I had many so called friends, people that I knew, people that I talked to and people that I liked. I spend all my energy on being well liked by many instead of being loved by few. Once my high school sweetheart told me "Em, the person who doesn't have any enemies does not have any real friends" I swiped his words of my chest like it was an irritating summer bug, who was he to talk?
Growing up I learned that the reasoning behind his words might have been something I should have been listen to more carefully and actually learn something from it. Growing up we have many times been told that you can't be loved by them all, and you can't like everyone, but I wanted to prove that this was wrong and that I can be loved by them all and I can also love them back.
But having a million people that you know and care about makes the energy you put towards this people very limited and the energy you get back is just as limited.

Today I value things different then I did then and I am a much happier person today.
When I was younger I spent all this energy towards people who loved the attention but they didn't care for real friendship, they weren't people to call when life kicked my ass from time to time, and they weren't the people who called me when they were planning dinner parties for close friends. I spent tons of energy and gained very little for myself, my battery drained out and I was left alone in the end of the day. Because sometimes it doesn't matter how many people you have in your phonebook or how many people you say HI to walking around downtown, because even if your name is known by many you can still live a lonely life without a safe zone to call your own, without a friend to call in the middle of the night with the sorrows making your heart hurt and brain on a heavy rotation.
I stopped.
Today I might not be the person people call for party check ups, I might not have 300 numbers to random people were I don't know or care about the last name of half of them. Today on the other hand I have a circle of friends who loves me just because I am the way I am, who gives me all the energy I give them, who care about my future, who're listening when life is rough and unfair. Today I have people that I call my friends, does other people from my past are just people that I know or people that I know the name of.
I believe in friendship, and I believe that the meaning behind friendship is different for many people, but for me it's easy to define, a friend is everything above and so much more, a friend is someone that you love, a friend is someone that you care about, a friend is a person who doesn't judge, a friend is a person who stands by your side regardless of what you do.
If I call you my friend, I will do all this and everything else that I can do to make your life easier, funnier, better and brighter - I will stand by your side and be the person you can call, the person you can cry out the tuff times to, the person you can laugh with, the person who'll always be there for you.
If I call you my friend, it's because I believe in you and I believe that you will give my life something that makes my life a little brighter and better.
I don't play games, I don't fake social with people I don't find interesting or worth spending time and energy on - which might sound rough, but on the other hand, it's not, because you can't love them all and if you can't love them all, love the ones you can and let the others go. I'm honest, if I call you my friend, I love you, and if I love you I will do everything for you.
But this is where my culture differs from the America beauty. It's as I said not bad, but different and something I'm struggling with on a daily base.
It's difficult for me to know and understand what's real here and what's not. If there is one thing Americans are amazing at, it is to use the world love.

I don't think I ever heard the world love so many times, daily, as I have since I came to America.

I am very careful today on what people I let into my life and in a country as America it might many times be difficult to live like that, since everyone here are very open and outgoing, kind of like I used to be at the age of 14 and 15. It's easy to fall in to that, trust and believe that love is actually there and that this person might actually be your friend.
I have learned the hard way to not listen anymore, and that's my way of dealing with the American culture.

Because one other thing I have learned to value since I came here, and that is that actions speaks louder then words. Be my guest and tell me that you love me, be my guest and call yourself my friend - but that doesn't make it true, that doesn't make it my reality. The day your actions goes hand in hand with your words is the day I will let you in to my life, that is the day I will spend my energy towards your needs and goals, that day is the day I will call you my friend. I'm not getting burned again, I believe in happiness way to much to put myself out there before I know it's safe.
Doing this I ended up with friends who I love more the life itself, doing this I ended up with people who never leaves me to my own sorrows, doing this made me apart of a family, a family of close friends who would do anything for each other. This is what I believe in, this is what I believe is worth waiting for. Don't' spend energy on people who doesn't appreciate your friendship, because that's just bad energy - because your friendship is important, if not to this person it might be important to someone else, so keep your life on rotation, live and learn, meet great people, and meet not so great people, love and give and you will gain.
I don't need a million people to make myself feel important, I don't need a thousands of people reinsure my ability as a good friend because honestly, today I couldn't care less. I care about my friends and their opinions are extremely important to me, but the rest, is not up to me, it's up to the world to figure out. I'm secure and I'm never alone, I'm loved and I love - How am I to call myself unhappy?
I'm the happiest version of me at this point of my life, I found myself, I found people who loves me, I found a safe and warm environment. Don't throw your heart out to the world, because if you don't trust the person who catches it, how do you know you'll get it back?

It's bedtime in the states, I'm tucking in.
The snow is still left on the ground, crystal clear, it feels a little bit like home and my homesickness from earlier is gone out the window, I'm peaceful, happy and relieved of the fact that life always have a way to figure itself out if you only have some faith in the fact that after low points there are highs that will give you butterflies and happy ending.

Who said that ZSA ZSA ZSU is only for love? Zsa zsa zsu is the story of my life, the feeling that I'm searching in everything that I do - zsa zsa zsu gives be the strength to work harder, just a little bit harder to find myself in the exact place I'm at right now - in a very happy state of mind.

Love em.

I helgen har det flyttats, monterats och skruvats.
Det var slitsamt, behövligt och bra - aldrig förr har det varit så roligt att flytta - sista minnen från desmond är nu borta, sista dåliga minnena från ett rum som blev mitt fängelse så länge, enda stället där jag borde kunna vara mig själv kände jag inte igen mig själv i längre. Allt packades ner och packades upp till glada samtal, skratt och fler flaskor vin med vänner som är det mest fantastiska som någonsin har skådats, om man bortser från min bästa där hemma.
Packar ner, packas upp  - nystart och det är fantastiskt. Prince har fått hänga med på flyttlasset och han är något sliten på att svänga omkring nu - men igår blev det lugn i tillvaron då det blev en mysday med phyllicia i nya stället, sen kom maria över med vinflaskor i påsen och förfrisknar som denna är alltid välkommet - vi firade, vi firade min nya lägenhet och att hon hade fått lägenhet i samma apartment complex som jag själv! Idag åkte vi och julhandlade, det blev en julgran och massa fint pynt, allt detta blir bilduppläggning här snarast.
Nu måste jag fokusera på mina sluttentor för morgondagen och torsdagens logic helvete.

Och adressen som jag la upp förr var följande

Emelie Lindgren
Apt Q 102
4519 SW 321st St
Federal Way, WA 98023

men apt var inte 102 utan bara Q2.

Så rätt adress är.

Emelie Lindgren
Apt Q 2
4519 SW 321st St
Federal Way, WA 98023

uppdatering om att jag lever.
Fick ett samtal av tårar från hemma - jag finns med dig i tanken, varje dag, hela tiden - jag finns med dig, du är inte ensam, jag älskar dig av hela mitt hjärta.


nu ska jag vandra prince och plugga vidare.

Love, em.

Idag har jag packat och flyttat hela dagen.
Nu kom jag precis ut ur en lång och varm dusch och klockan är snart 2 och inte en droppe alkohol har konsumerats denna fredagskväll. Imorgon är det tidig morgon igen med löprunda med Prince först och sedan är det påväg till lägenheten igen, det ska fixas, packas upp, göras fint och sen tillbaka hit - dusch och göra mig själv fin och sedan är det middag och coctails med folk jag tycker om, den 3 delen av min vänskapskrets, också känd som den nytillkomna, nytillkommen är människor jag träffat denna quarter, det är det jag älskar med USA; här träffar man folk hela tiden, inga spel och inget trams, gillar man varandra, japp då blir man vänner, gillar man inte varandra, då går man vidare till nästa vänskapsprojekt. Själv älskar jag mina vänner och jag har uppskattat dem mer än någonsin den senaste veckan och veckan innan det - då dom verkligen har visat sig vara vänner av den starka varianten.

Prince andas tungt på hans säng, borde också somna - men funderar på att ta en smörgås först.. men å andra sidan ska man inte äta efter 8 och nu har jag inte druckit så bakis mat är det inte heller och hungring är jag inte - mer sugen.. så jag säger nej och tänker att den smörgåsen kommer smaka bättre i morgon.

jag är lycklig och jag vet inte riktigt varför - men det är en bra dag att vara jag helt enkelt, även om jag just nu har varit vaken i 23 timmar utan sömn.. och ska upp igen om 4 timmar för en iskall morgonpromenad, det känns bara som om ingenting kan dra ner lyckoruset nu och det är en härlig känsla, en känsla jag kan vänja mig med..

OCH
om NÅGON eller NÅGRA känner för att göra mig riktigt lycklig till jul när jag kommer sitta hänne borta utan både snö och familj - skicka ostbågar, lösgodis och turkisk peppar!!!!!! då skulle jag bli så glad att jag inte ens skulle märka att jag var ensam över jul! KOM IHÅG ATT JAG BYTT ADRESS!

finns kalle ankas jul på youtube? en jul i seattle? det skrämmer mig.. det skrämmer mig jätte mkt..

love, em.

"A hopeless romantic person" is a sentence that I would use on me - and I am not the only one, that was how Kristen described me the last time we went to the movies. I have always been that person, ask anyone who have ever known me and they would say the same thing. I love the movies that give out the message that with love, everything is possible and to settle for comfortable is only for lazy people who lost their faith in love.

People have always told me that the movies I refer my life to is not reality and on the Hollywood glamorous screen everything is possible, but in our daily life living situation we need to stay real to ourselves and our feelings. But if I want to stay real to my feeling, I believe that waiting for that breathtaking love that lifts you of your ground and put you on top of their world. I do not believe in bad timing, personal issues or bad karma, I believe that if you truly love someone and that something is meant to be, it will be.

What I am trying to say is that I believe in a feeling and if the feeling is right, there is nothing that can stand in the way for it. The feeling needs to be mutual, the feeling needs to go both ways - otherwise its not like the happy love movie, then it's just sad, heartbreaking and something many of us faces on daily bases.
So in one way I am happy that I am what I am and believe in what I believe in, because I wont settle for the simple road, because if I did I could have been hitched of the market a long time ago if I wanted to. One thing my best friend Ewa once told me, one of the first time I met her, at the time I was still very young, and I complained about still being single, my guy friends told me I was too picky and Ewa told me "you're only single because you want to" and combine those two answers I found the real me. I was single because I wanted to and I was single because I was too picky to just pick the first guy. It wasn't that I really wanted to be single, but I didn't want to be in a relationship bad enough to just settle for randomness.
This is why I always kept trying after all those times I hit the wrong type of relationship, or wrong type of feeling, with the same eager and same faith in the fact that I would be happy one day too.
I know I am a strong person, I mean, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and everything that hits you in life make you learn how to deal with things in the future. I am also a very emotional person, which is something that could be a very bad combo. But I let my self out there and if I loose, yeah, I loose big time and it makes me very upset, heartbroken and devastated at the time but knowing myself I know that I will rise from that as well. Because being a very emotional person is something that I have learned is a good thing that pays off in the end. It takes a lot for an emotional breakdown, I have one every 6 months if nothing really bad happens, like last Monday on the day IT when the 24^th came and passed.
But when things happens to me, like one of those heartbreaking stories when the Hollywood story doesn't become your reality, I don't collapse, not for very long at least. Being a very emotional person makes me give my heart and give it my best, and if it falls apart and I get burned I get extremely sad, not functional, bed resting, crying, analysing - yeah you know, the whole package of getting your heart cut in half. I believe that it's good to let all that come out, because it goes away. If you let it all out, allow yourself to feel everything that you feel and allow yourself to be an emotional whore, things gets easier. Because hell yeah it sucks to get your heart burned, but if you keep it inside of you it will take you longer to get over it. So let it all out, and keep believing.

Believe is my other best friend Pinks favourite word and I understand why, because believe takes you further then you can imagine. I believe and I know I will get my Hollywood ending because of it. It helps me to believe in that, it helps me to believe that everything we are is there for a reason and if something is meant to be it is meant to be so there is no reason to dry your eyes, let it out and move on because what's meant to be will be, no matter how many tears you're spilling. Believing that always brings me right back on top of the game, believing that, never keeps me down on the low for very long. One thing that I stopped doing is to analyse, because if it isn't meant to be it wont be no matter how much you're trying to turn it all around, because some people wont come around, because of the fact that it isn't meant to be. You just need to be on the top of the game and believe and have faith that you will get your Hollywood story.
I mean hell yeah its easy to be realistic, but that life just seems a little to boring for me.

Never settle for anything less then the ZSA ZSA ZSU, I got tattoo onto my ankle, so I kind of have to live by it - right? And if we only live once, we should really get the chance to live the story that everyone else wants to write.

Right now I'm playing Beyoncé's new album and as I'v introduced to you all before, if I were a boy and single ladies are two favourites on her new album, but now when I just got the whole CD with all her new songs, I have a new favourite.

Broken hearted girl

If everything about you never were

The nothing I like about you could have been

But still you live inside of me

So tell me how is that

You're the only one I wish I could forget

The only one I love to not forgive

And though you've break my heart

You're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you

Cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me

And put tears on my face

And even when I hate you its pains me to say

I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe

I don't want a broken heart

Don't wanna to take a breath without you babe

I don't want to play that part

I know that I love you but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kinda way, no no

I don't want a broken heart

And I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl no no

No broken-hearted girl

I'm no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say

Up 'til now I've always been afraid

That you would never come around

And still I wanna put this out

You say you got the most respect for me

But sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me

And still you're in my heart

But you're the only one

And yes there are times when I hate you

But I don't complain

Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away

Oh but now I don't hate you I'm happy to say

That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe

I don't want a broken heart

Don't wanna to take a breath without you baby

I don't want to play that part

I know that I love you but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kinda way, no no

I don't want a broken heart

I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl

No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh

I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, mmm yeah

Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free

To spread my wings and fly away, away with you,

Yeah yeah yeah, oh ohh...

I don't wanna be without my baby

I don't want a broken heart

Don't wanna to take a breath without my baby

I don't want to play that part

I know that I love you but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kinda way, no no

I don't want a broken heart

I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl

No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Broken-hearted girl, no, no

No broken-hearted girl

No broken-hearted girl    


so live safe and love a lot and never let the chance of love go away.
Love, em.