mixers of the years!
Kategori: Let's do it.
I have mixed feelings about the maskerad party we are attending, I have mixed feelings about the end of the year and what has gone down the last 12 months, I have mixed feelings about the upcoming year because I have no idea what next year has in store for me - and I have no idea about what will happen after february 9th and as always when I'm scared I ignore to find the solution and I keep on moving like the dead line isn't anywhere near me.
A longer piece of my life of 2009 will be here soon.
Why am I sceptic to the party?
Becuase that's what I do, because I don't remember one new years that wasn't a complete flopp, and I don't know if that is because my expectetions are too high or if the events just in general sucks.
Lets backtrack.
- 2003 -
I had a party at home in vasterfarnbeo and honestly, I remember that party to be fun, but I also know that our thoughts of a great party aren't what they are today.
- 2004 -
I went to a party in a house in vasteras, with newfound friends and we were the youngest in the thrill and thet night ended in tears.
- 2005 -
We had a party at Carolines house and even this night ended in tears, walking home alone in the snow.
- 2006 -
We had a big party at Linus house, which was a great get together with alot of great people, it was me and my boys and then a bunch of other people showed up! it was a great party, but I ended up in Irsta for some reason and again, in tears.
- 2007 -
I had just moved back from Oslo and spent new years with Amanda, Robin and Sebastian, it was the day before I was moving to Stockholm. We drank, played games, watched fireworks and fell asleep, it was prob one of the best new years night, maybe just because we didn't hype it up, we took it for what it was, great company, food and alcohol.
- 2008 -
Lame, lame, lame.
Dinner ar my apartment.
In a mustang.
At a getto party somewhere in federal way. even this night ended in tears but also a sweet I love you.
- 2009 -
Last year was allready built up to fail, it was great, it was drunkness and it was at a bar in Kent with great friends but the rest of the crowed wasn't much to shout for. This night ended i tears.
I'm starting to realize that I prob cry more on new years then any other occation, and it's always because of some boy - I guess tomorrow might be set up for the same, but I don't understand why new years triggs it - why is new years so much more emotional for me then any other night.
Hopefully, my heart is stronger and my mascara waterproof.
Because I won't share a tear tomorrow and I will actually try my best to have fun!
Not only for me, but for my friends and for my baby sister who will spend her new years night on american soil.
love,
Em.
oh, and happy new years!
