Reflection - life in general.
So we were driving home today, my man, myself and our gorgeous little baby sleeping in her car seat and we looked at each other and both had the same thought, damn, we are a family! It's been one kind of a journey, you don't become a family in the same instant as you become parents, it's like those pair of shoes your mom bought you when you were 7, one size too big so that you would have something to grow into, you hated the part where they didn't fit but you grew into them and became to love them. That's how our family was when Lillie first came to this world, it was difficult to make it fit, we couldn't really figure out how to make us fit into these new roles as parents and have a relationship at the same time - how are you a family? We almost threw it out the door more than once, our relationship that is. We just couldn't make it work, we just couldn't figure it out. Until we stopped trying, until we just started being and letting the new family role start fitting us - we were lost. But as soon as we threw away our expectations of what a family should be and what we should feel for each other the pressure of being the perfect little family was gone and we finally became one. Sometime between then and now we became happy again and our relationship grew stronger that it has ever been, deeper understanding of one another and a mutual respect and above all a deeper and more mature love. All couples have journeys of their own, all couples embraces the roles of parenting different and all parents relationship to one another are effected differently, but I think it's safe to say, it's a gigantic change to become a parent. Luckily we ended up on top, as always, happier than we have ever been and with our beautiful baby girl we make a happy little family. I know as I look ahead, many more struggles will appear, but it's not about the struggles - its how you come out of them that define you as a couple - and I am lucky to be marrying my best friend and together start this journey of raising a family.